Early this morning, Fairuz messaged me, saying that he is unable to meet me this Saturday. Then, I thought to myself: “Did we agree to meet on Saturday? I did not have any idea at all.” Anyway, it was a blessing in disguise that he is unable to meet it then as I have Jiemin’s birthday to attend.
Work was boring, as usual. It seems like I have no motivation to work nowadays. No reason for it though… Left at 4.30pm, waited for Darlene to go off so that we can go gym together.
She came to my house 1st as I have to get changed. Let her look at my photo albums. It seems like this is what everyone do when their friends come to their house. From here, she has saw me when I was very thin, acceptable, FAT and becoming slim again. From her comments and when I look over the photos again, I like myself best when I took the photo in Star Virgo. To get that point, I have gone to gym once a week for 5 months!!! For now, I have been going 3 times a week. Maybe will get a lesser time to slim down. I HOPE…
But disaster struck when I reached home. Saw this guy standing in front of my house, looking for Mummy. I TOLD YOU SHE IS NOT HOME!!! SHE NEVER PICK UP OUR CALL!!! He keep insisting that we call till she pick up our call. I slammed the door at him. Did not bother what he will do then. He left, I guess.
Was very pissed already then. Stuff myself with bread!!! Ate more than usual I guess. Seems like what I have lost in gym today has been gained back by what I ate. This is so me… Stuffing myself with food whenever I am unhappy or pissed.
The best thing that happened to me today was to be able to talk to Darling. He is back in Singapore already. Asked him if he were to let me decide, I would not want him to go Langakawi to work. And he agreed. Going to look for a job in Singapore. Love you Dear. Looking forward to December where we can go Langakawi. Hope that all my sisters will agree to go as well.
Still wondering if I want to go Union Square with Cruise and maybe also with Joey on Friday. Dear allowed me to go.
Still wondering if I should ask Dear to meet me tomorrow? Or should we meet on Friday?
Will be heading to the gym again on Friday morning, before going to work. But on Saturday, should I go cycling as well? I have been yearning to cycle for a long time. But I think after cycling, I will sweat and smell. Not a nice way to present myself to the birthday girl and others there as well.
I AM DETERMINED TO BE SLIM AGAIN!!!
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
1:57 PM
It was raining over in Malaysia last night. No wonder I felt so cold after bathing. That was what Dear told me when I called him. He was in a very pissed off mood then. Did not feel like talking to me at all. It was like 5 minutes away from his hotel room only and it had to rain so heavily. He has no way to get to the hotel. Had to seek shelter somewhere to wait for the rain to stop. Poor thing...
After work, went to meet Jie Yin at Orchard MRT station. Had to get Jiemin her birthday present. Not long after, we decided to get a bikini for her. In addition to that, we bought another door cover. (whatever you call it) Hope she likes and will wear the bikini. She should love the door mat. Because it is the picture of Little Twin Star. Her favourite!!!
Looks like I have been buying bikinis as a gift for people this year. So people out there, if your birthday is yet to come, guess you all will expect a bikini from me!!! Just kidding...
Got a brown top for myself as well. Like a skirt also...
Went to have Yoshinoya for dinner. My suggestion... Just had the urge to eat it. They have a new dish. Looks like popcorn chicken. A bigger version of it. However, ate only about half of it. Too filling for me...
Left for home at 8.30pm... Felt abit tired already then... Had nothing much to shop for as well...
While waiting for bus 132 to come, messaged Darling, asking him whether he is coming back to Singapore. From his reply, it seems like he was on the way to Singapore already then.
I can conclude that between 9pm to 11pm, it is very very hard to call Malaysia. The line is always busy. Tried afew times before I could get through. Howvever, how silly can I be. I actually went to cut off the line!!! Stupid... Had to try afew more times before succeeding to get through again. Dear ask me to call back at 10pm.
Tried once, line was switched off. Called his Singapore number, it was not turned on as well. Tried the second time, the call was disconnected. Wonder where is he now. MISSING!!!
Tomorrow, I will be going gym again!!! This time round, it seems like Darlene is joining me. It has been a long time since I have gone out with her.
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
1:31 PM
Monday blues was in me today. Totally did not have the mood to work. Felt real sleepy as well. Guess it was because of the much fun I had last night. Kept writing 7 September on all the correspondence instead of 6. Luckily I realise it just after I pen it down.
Never in my life have I called Dear to wake him up in the morning. Today was the first day. He had to go through a 8 hour journey ride before reaching Langkawi. Slept in the bus after talking to me. Called him after I had taken my shower. Talked for 20 mins...
During lunch, he rang me once. I called him back. Cheaper this way. Was telling me how much fun is he having over there at that moment. A good way to relax also after all the hard work in Amara. Let your hair down and play hard Dear. However, I know a part of him is still pondering over the question of whether to take up the job offer. Decided to take it up only if they are willing to pay him 2,000 ringgit. Will they? Still, I rather he find another job in Singapore. What do you think?
Thought I could meet Elaine today. But she was still doing her project when I left work. Decided to head to the gym then. Told Dear about it. Called him for a chat. I had made a fool out of myself!!! Dialled the wrong number. To think I thought that he was with Din already and they trying to make fun of me. When the other party put down my call, I went to check Dear's handphone number again. Goodness!!! WRONG NUMBER!!! After our this call, wonder how much is left in the card now. Guess the value will be zero in no time. Have to call him again later.
Dear's bringing me to Langkawi end of this year!!! Love you Dear!!! I do not mind not going on a Cruise anymore. Anyway, at the end of the year, not very safe to go on a Cruise also. We both agree that only 2 of us go there is not fun. Shall call all my other 8 sisters to come along. Wonder if they are interested. Anyway, they are going to plan a get-away at the end of the year as well. Kill 2 birds with 1 stone now...
Met Michelle downstairs. Was told that our eletricity was cut off today. Only resumed at 5.30pm. I can guess what cause it then. Nothing much to comment about this. I am numb to it already.
While waiting for the bus to go to the gym, met Millie downstairs. Seem to be meeting everyone downstairs. She had worn my shoes to school!!! I actually had to wear Mummy's shoes to gym initially. But since I met her downstairs, changed shoes with her there. What a scene...
After gym, went to packet a rice home to eat. Swollowed a fish-bone!!! Scary... Could feel it in my throat for a while... But just a while... After I ate a slice of to-fu, the bone is gone as well.
Wonder what should we get for Jiemin for her birthday... Headache...
Anyway, going to watch television, bathe and call Dear Dear. He must be having fun with Din now at Penang. Take care Darling...
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
12:04 PM
Although it is a Sunday, woke up quite early. Used to it already I guess. 10.30am... Went to gym then. It was free admission today!!! Because of some sports campaign.
Came home, watched VCD. Felt a little hungry. Went down to eat with all my siblings. Afte a week, I am finally eating rice for lunch again. This was my only meal for the day, I realised later in the night. Seems like I have not been eating much lately.
Tried to upload some pictures to the computer. Success!!! Realised that the resolutions were too big. That is why I can store afew pictures only. Went to set it to the lowest and re-upload them.
Got ready to leave home at 5.30pm. Aunty Irene and family came to fetch Millie and I. The rest of my family took Daddy's van.
Went there, took alot of pictures. Sang a number of songs as well. Was rather nervous at 1st. But as time goes on, I sang many many songs on my own!!! So proud of myself. Went to get a birthday cake for Millie. Auntie Daisy told me she will pay for this Karaoke session. Oreo ice-cream cake from Swensens!!! Nice!!! While Wendy and I were waiting for the cake, darling actually called me. Suprise surprise!!! Gave me his international calling card number and password, and asked me to call him. Tried many times but the network seems to be busy. Decided to use Mummy's phone to call him straight. She will faint if she sees her phonebill for this month. Spent 13 minutes talking to him. As they were waiting for me to cut the cake, told dear I would call him back again later in the night. But by this time, the battery for my didgital camera was flat already. Could not take any photos. What a waste.
On my way home, I thought about Dear alot. What he told me. His whole family cannot bear to let him go Langkawi to work. Too far a place. Know what darling, I also cannot bear to. I told you that. But it made you feel worse. So I decided not to persuade you to stay any longer. Do not want to add burden to you. Just go there, talk to the General Manager and David, then come back and discuss with us 1st. Do not make any rush decisions. At least like this, it will drag abit more time. You going over there and coming to Singapore to work is a different thing. You have your sister here. But over there, you have no one at all. I teared sliently in the car. Hopefully both my auntie and uncle did not realise it.
After bathing, felt a little hungry. Asked a packet of Pokky. Called Dear as well. He was actually sleeping in the bus now. So poor thing... So lonely... If only I can be there with you. Accompany you through the journey. But dear, do not worry. My heart will always be with you. Told him I going out with Elaine tomorrow. It has been years since I last saw her!!! I mean months... Wonder when he going to bring me to Malaysia with him. I miss you darling...
Going to call him again tomorrow before I leave for work. Have a good rest darling...
Agenda for this week:
- Monday - meet Elaine after work at Bugis I suppose since she wants to go and pluck her eyebrows.
- Tuesday - meet Jieyin at Orchard at 5.30pm to buy Jiemin's present
- Wednesday - go gym after work then meet Darling if he comes back then
- Thursday - meet Darling if he neevr come back on Wednesday or if he come back late on Wednesday
- Friday - go gym before going to work
- Saturday - go Jiemin's birthday party
- Sunday - have prayers at my house. Maybe go gym in the morning? Maybe meet Fairuz? Maybe meet Darling???
What an occupied week I have ahead of me.
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
4:24 PM
That was the last words we said before we put down the phone last night. In a joking manner of course.
I did not feel like blogging last night. But somehow, I felt not comfortable. Been too used with blogging already. So decided to only blog here and not in Xanga. Nothing much for Elaine to know anyway.
Went to watch VCD after that. Kept dozing off, as usual. Did not even realised that Dear called. It was only after about 20 minutes then I realised him. Called him back and talk for awhile before going to bed.
Woke up feeling weird. Have the feeling that I should work at 8am instead. Anyway, at work, I thought that there was nothing much to do. Last night, the tray was near to empty. But I was wrong. There was a number of reservations to be keyed in. Kept me occupied till after lunch.
With the help of Ein Ein, I begin to label the travel agent contract file again. Grace allowed me to leave at 4pm!!! Thought she was joking at 1st. But at 4pm, when Darlene asked if we should forward the call to Reception, Grace agreed.
All of us left at 5pm. Ein Ein left earlier though. Headed to Grand Mercure hotel to meet all my friends. Really regretted going. There is only 1 word to describe my evening. BORING!!! In total, about 30 people came. Most of them I do not know. Even those that I know, they keep talking among themselves. Felt so lonely then. I just cannot click with them anymore. People change...
Arjunah told me he know Shawn, the new Assistant Manager in Amara. Asked him if he know Dear also. He looked at me for a while, and force a yes out of him. So fake... Messaged Dear to ask him if he knows Arjunah. He have no idea at all who is he though. Asked me to call him if I can. But I just cannot call overseas. Still underage to do so. :x Darling called me then. Asked me how I get to know him.
Did not eat at all. Just did not feel like it. Just took a few photos only also. All of them are bad photographers!!! Took all my photos quite a distance away. Could not really see our faces at all. Decided to delete them. Do you all know that cameras have a zoom function??? Stupid fools...
Felt abit weird when both Melvin and Gary met. When Melvin arrived, Gary has just left the room. He came to sit beside me. Then, both he and Eric went out to take food. When Gary came back, saw food at his place. Knew it was Melvin's. Decided to make the 1st move to move to another place to sit. However, Melvin insisted that he should be the one moving, asked Gary to sit beside me. Can you two do not treat me as an alien? It is so bad to just sit beside me? We are all friends. Do not make thing difficult for me please. I already got my darling. I will not think much about the 2 of you already. But what make me please was that they both actually went home together. Sunshine after the rain I guess.
Decided to head home at around 10pm. Felt like the journey to home was very long. Still managed to reached home by bus though.
Going to gym 1st tomorrow before going to sing my heart out. It's party time!!!
Before I leave, I would like to congratulate the following people.
- Steve and his newly-wed wife. Their wedding photos were fantastic!!!
- Arjunah and Rideng are together now.
- Eric is actually in Singapore with his girlfriend. Someone to tie him down for the rest of his life!!!
{&i'll hold on till the end of time-}
2:54 PM
